Assalam,
hey, you guys! It me, Diana/Marie/Blue-Dragon/Lady ShadoWish/Shadow-Serpant. I'm kindda busy lately because I got exam, MID YEAR EXAM, which is very scares me because I feels soooooo relax. Seriously, it bother me, a lot!
Anyway, the one that really scares me more than a lot is todays teenagers. I'm scared because I seen, witness, and even experience all the wrong and negative thing. Even a little negative could be the biggest negative such as lies, disobey our parents order and many more that I couldn't explain it. Among this negatives, the most that I afraid is about girl and boy having relationship.
I'm not saying it wrong but, it could be wrong if the couple used the relationship to do something that their heart wants without thinking properly. For example, I witness my friends drown theirselves in the name of their lover! That is sooo damn wrong!!! I almost cry when I witness it, wishing that I had never witness any of my friend that has a weak mind, so weak! Most of all, my friends willing to lie and make a fight with their own parents! Once their parents shouted at them they answer back with a shout too. That's not how it work!!!
I know it feel so tired to listen all night and day as our parents keep talking and command us to do what they said. I know how it feels but sometimes, our parents told us this and that because they know better than us!!! Teenagers seems to confused this. "What prove that shows our parents know better that us?" They know better than us because they seen the changing in our world. They experiance it before us, they witness it before us and they can predict what would happen when they do this and that. I know it old-fashion but at least they think straight.
Now? Teenagers only think about they feelings. It not wrong to think about our feelings but we need to read our feelings very properly. Feelings are sooo great, I admit but it also make us blind, deaf and numb. Someone said "When you feel something from your heart, don't just let it shout first without your mind permission. You have to discuss first about that feeling with your mind so the mind could translate it weather the feeling is worth it or not."
I wish and pray to Allah SWT, that one day when I witness or heard one of my friends shout "I missed him, my boyfriend!", I could just slap her hardly on her face but I couldn't. It not my right. But honestly, it feels soooo damn annoying when a girl is so obsess about her boyfriend! It annoying because he just a boy! A human boy. Why would she be so proud about her boyfriend? Because he is handsome? Hell! There are million of handsome boy in this planet! I hate it! I hate witness my friends are so weak about understanding their feeling properly. Masyaallah!
I don't want to talk about it anymore. It makes me really want to slap my friends face right now because of their weakness.. One person said "DO NOT let the word love drown you, and DO NOT let the word love control you. Let it be YOU the one who control the love and the one who control their feeling."
Assalam..
(the meaning of feeling in this post is 'nafsu'. I don't know in english but I think it call desire)
Lady ShadoWish
Saturday 19 May 2012
Wednesday 2 May 2012
Holes Inside
Assalam,
a few days ago, my strugle start to rise, again. Friends, parents, education, time and myself. My biggest strugle is friends. Well, I realise had always been used by my friends in many ways, but I just do what they say like a gooood dog. I wish I could say to them that I hate being used but, I'm tooo nice. I don't want to bring them down so I swallow my feeling inside. God it so pain now!
My strugle with my parents isn't bad but sometimes it is. Education? Well, I'm kinda frustrated with that. It May now and my mid-year exam is soo around the conner and only less than 4 months, my biggest exam will come. Should I call it my Doom exam? Because if I fail to get straight As, I would be shame! My family are count on me now, to make our family's name rise and proud. Even they didn't torture me like I was 12 years old but I know they want to less my tension but turns out, I became more tension without the torture. (Yeah, I know. It weird)
Well, I think I have mentioned about time and myself? Huh, that's the hard one to explain but one thing for sure it connected with friends, parents, education and time. i got no one to speak or split it out about this, well, except one person. But that person doesn't understand my habits or myself. Hahaha! I tell you, no one in the school understand me, which is good and bad. Good because I'm the rare one in the school, Bad because no one know what I really wanted.
Well, God knows what going on with me. ;)
That's it for today, I guess. Bye
Lady ShadoWish~
P.S - I'm on my way to write my third novel so wish me luck! Hahahha
a few days ago, my strugle start to rise, again. Friends, parents, education, time and myself. My biggest strugle is friends. Well, I realise had always been used by my friends in many ways, but I just do what they say like a gooood dog. I wish I could say to them that I hate being used but, I'm tooo nice. I don't want to bring them down so I swallow my feeling inside. God it so pain now!
My strugle with my parents isn't bad but sometimes it is. Education? Well, I'm kinda frustrated with that. It May now and my mid-year exam is soo around the conner and only less than 4 months, my biggest exam will come. Should I call it my Doom exam? Because if I fail to get straight As, I would be shame! My family are count on me now, to make our family's name rise and proud. Even they didn't torture me like I was 12 years old but I know they want to less my tension but turns out, I became more tension without the torture. (Yeah, I know. It weird)
Well, I think I have mentioned about time and myself? Huh, that's the hard one to explain but one thing for sure it connected with friends, parents, education and time. i got no one to speak or split it out about this, well, except one person. But that person doesn't understand my habits or myself. Hahaha! I tell you, no one in the school understand me, which is good and bad. Good because I'm the rare one in the school, Bad because no one know what I really wanted.
Well, God knows what going on with me. ;)
That's it for today, I guess. Bye
Lady ShadoWish~
P.S - I'm on my way to write my third novel so wish me luck! Hahahha
Wow!
Assalam,
hey, you guys. Sorry i didn't update a thing in my blog, even there is no one read my update but let pretend that someone did my update and hey, new dashboard? I almost thought I had the wrong website! It kinda weird to me but I'll do my best to understand it. Hehe.. That's all for this title, I'll continue with another title which I pray so hard not to talk about it in public but I cound't stand it anymore. I need to stand my ground! Bye!
Lady ShadoWish~
hey, you guys. Sorry i didn't update a thing in my blog, even there is no one read my update but let pretend that someone did my update and hey, new dashboard? I almost thought I had the wrong website! It kinda weird to me but I'll do my best to understand it. Hehe.. That's all for this title, I'll continue with another title which I pray so hard not to talk about it in public but I cound't stand it anymore. I need to stand my ground! Bye!
Lady ShadoWish~
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