Assalam,
hey, you guys! I'm back. So what happen today? I got my PMR result and damn it, I got 6A 2B! My parents have successfully convince me that it was a great result for me, they kept saying I had done my best. Well, I know my parent's mind, especially my dad. I know he was a bit disappointing but he was good on hiding his true feeling. My mom, well, let just say she really disappointed but she does not show it, of course. Then, my grandfather brought me a jacket, which I love it so much. But the most good news are my best friend have straight A's!!!! I am so proud of her (Vignesh) and him (Aiman). They are the best and I can't stop smiling for them!
But then, my smiling shatter when I start thinking again. I had lost with my greatest enemy, erm, my niece. Well, it's her that I'm worried about. It's her father! That man is really annoying when he look at my family like a joker!!! When his children or his cousin's children got an excellent result, he'll show-off. Humph! I got beat him once when I got 5A in UPSR but now, I lost. Frustrating, honestly. It was the biggest nightmare! One day, when my brother had his result for SPM and my brother didn't get A on it, he show-off with his friend's children! Stupid! Why the hell he proud of his friend's children?! Then, he teas my brother in the Blackberry group.
I was very sad when my brother, cried. He was so ashamed and we all were too. And from that moment I promise to get straight A in PMR for my brother so I could slap MY words to my uncle! But I had fail. I told to my dad that I'm sorry because I didn't successfully fulfilled my own quest. But he told it's okay but there's a little fear and of course, disappointed. I must say I was beginning to phobia with my own uncle. His words are poison to me, to my family.
Now, my dad said I need to forget about him, forget about everyone that I hate, just focus on myself and my future. I have to obey even though I didn't want to think of myself when my parents are unhappy. Besides, people always said we must put some else in front of us so we could move on and I had put 6 people in front of me: My parents and my best friends. Yeah, its too much but I don't care. I love them all, so much.
I am still proud of my friends. They were amazing! God! Thank You, Ya Allah! For giving me such a great and brilliant friends! May Allah SWT bless you guys!
That's all for today. Hope you guys know how much grateful I am, having these awesome friends.
Goodnight!
LadyShadoWish
Wednesday 19 December 2012
Wednesday 12 December 2012
Dying Here
Assalam.
hey, guys. What's up? I'm sure you guys are enjoying the holiday, the summers and Christmas , right? Well, BTW enjoy! while I'm slowly suffer inside my own house. It's been a month now that I become a 'maid'. i getting used to it now, except the emotional. When all goes mad, I become madness! My brain become chaos! Now, listening to my sister sigh heavily and grumpily makes me want to slap her face!!! I was running around the house like crazy girl. I need a break! but Hell, no! My boss (mother) wouldn't let me.
I'm not saying she is worse mom, okay!? All of my family doesn't understand me. My so-called-elder-brother doesn't act like a big brother at all!! Right now, he's having a fever and more acting like a stupid brother I ever had! While my sister always with her grumpy mood, makes me want to pull my hair out. I have the least problem with my younger brother and my father. They only makes me angry when they keep pushing me around like doll, no, slave!
Honestly, thank god, I'm good on keeping my anger. I don't mind being a slave in my family, I don't mind being a robot that follow people's order, and most importantly, I don't mind being shadow in my family. I will be slave/robot/shadow IF they UNDERSTAND me. I'm not a slave with muscles, I'm not a robot that can work every seconds, minutes and hours, and I'm not always being shadow that always hiding inside the darkness (even though I like the darkness more). Sometimes, even the shadow want to show itself in the light.
Now, my PMR result are around the corner and every member of my family, and niece, uncles and aunties are looking at me. Some are hoping and waiting for me to be victorious, some are hiding their cruel smile and waiting to see my defeated. I'm freaking out too. IF I fail, I would disappointing my family, especially my father. He said it's okay if i fail now but I won't accept if I fail. His brother-in-law (my uncle) would very happy if I fail or have a low grads than her daughter. He think their family is the best. Hah! F#ck off! Now my parents want me to get straight A because they want to show that my family is the best too. It's call using someone, but hey, I'm so sick of that man!
Okay, I think I confess a lot now. I need to keep some of my, secrets insides me. Even the secrets are burning inside me, suffocating me, killing me, I still need it to be myself. People said it's dangerous to keep Secrets for a long time but for me, secrets if like drug. I willing to keep it to myself, even though it harms me. I guess it for today. Gudnight.
LadyShadoWish
hey, guys. What's up? I'm sure you guys are enjoying the holiday, the summers and Christmas , right? Well, BTW enjoy! while I'm slowly suffer inside my own house. It's been a month now that I become a 'maid'. i getting used to it now, except the emotional. When all goes mad, I become madness! My brain become chaos! Now, listening to my sister sigh heavily and grumpily makes me want to slap her face!!! I was running around the house like crazy girl. I need a break! but Hell, no! My boss (mother) wouldn't let me.
I'm not saying she is worse mom, okay!? All of my family doesn't understand me. My so-called-elder-brother doesn't act like a big brother at all!! Right now, he's having a fever and more acting like a stupid brother I ever had! While my sister always with her grumpy mood, makes me want to pull my hair out. I have the least problem with my younger brother and my father. They only makes me angry when they keep pushing me around like doll, no, slave!
Honestly, thank god, I'm good on keeping my anger. I don't mind being a slave in my family, I don't mind being a robot that follow people's order, and most importantly, I don't mind being shadow in my family. I will be slave/robot/shadow IF they UNDERSTAND me. I'm not a slave with muscles, I'm not a robot that can work every seconds, minutes and hours, and I'm not always being shadow that always hiding inside the darkness (even though I like the darkness more). Sometimes, even the shadow want to show itself in the light.
Now, my PMR result are around the corner and every member of my family, and niece, uncles and aunties are looking at me. Some are hoping and waiting for me to be victorious, some are hiding their cruel smile and waiting to see my defeated. I'm freaking out too. IF I fail, I would disappointing my family, especially my father. He said it's okay if i fail now but I won't accept if I fail. His brother-in-law (my uncle) would very happy if I fail or have a low grads than her daughter. He think their family is the best. Hah! F#ck off! Now my parents want me to get straight A because they want to show that my family is the best too. It's call using someone, but hey, I'm so sick of that man!
Okay, I think I confess a lot now. I need to keep some of my, secrets insides me. Even the secrets are burning inside me, suffocating me, killing me, I still need it to be myself. People said it's dangerous to keep Secrets for a long time but for me, secrets if like drug. I willing to keep it to myself, even though it harms me. I guess it for today. Gudnight.
LadyShadoWish
Wednesday 5 December 2012
Friendship Forever, and Always
Assalm,
hey, it's late actually but i can't help it. i'm typing as fast as i can. you know, i just finish watching a japan comedian movie. it was funny! I like it so much. it's, teach me something. the story is about a girl change herself into a boy and get into boy's school. her aim was to make this guy (that is her admire) to high jump again and to see him smile. thing got a bit not good at the beginning but then, the guy soon realize that she was a girl. through, he kept it a secret. she have fun with all boys in the dorms, she was happy with herself and of course, her feeling for the guy is getting to blossom.
before that, there was 3 different dorms and when she came there, they have united. they haven't realize she was a girl until she was accident and the boys saw her inner vest that kept her breast to her body so it look like a boy. things got chaos then. every boys that she knew disliked after what she don't. but then, the guy explain everything. it was a late decision but the boys had agreed to keep her secret. they become friends again and this time they were all connected.
lastly, when she finally finish with her job to make her admire high jump again, she decided to go home. everyone, which were every boys from the dorms thanked her and give her some support. through, her admire sent her to the airport. he didn't express his love to her but he did show her, by, well, kissing her. after a few month, she got a news said that the boys from the her school was having a vacation near her house. through, she scream!
even it's a weird ending. but at least it satisfied me. i was so envy of that girl. she got her admire, she have a best friend, she met a lot of boys from that school that makes her happy, she have the most beautiful memories in her life but most importantly, she have what she wanted that is she had bring back a smile to her admire and also to herself.
Well, if you don't understand what i'm saying, you better watch it. it has English sub too,Hanakimi no kimitachi e. but now, all i wanna say is, i want to have a very best memory in mylife with my friends and my, admire. Bullshit! I just split it! Got to sleep! this feeling is boiling in me! Arrrrhhhhh!!!
LadyShadoWish
hey, it's late actually but i can't help it. i'm typing as fast as i can. you know, i just finish watching a japan comedian movie. it was funny! I like it so much. it's, teach me something. the story is about a girl change herself into a boy and get into boy's school. her aim was to make this guy (that is her admire) to high jump again and to see him smile. thing got a bit not good at the beginning but then, the guy soon realize that she was a girl. through, he kept it a secret. she have fun with all boys in the dorms, she was happy with herself and of course, her feeling for the guy is getting to blossom.
before that, there was 3 different dorms and when she came there, they have united. they haven't realize she was a girl until she was accident and the boys saw her inner vest that kept her breast to her body so it look like a boy. things got chaos then. every boys that she knew disliked after what she don't. but then, the guy explain everything. it was a late decision but the boys had agreed to keep her secret. they become friends again and this time they were all connected.
lastly, when she finally finish with her job to make her admire high jump again, she decided to go home. everyone, which were every boys from the dorms thanked her and give her some support. through, her admire sent her to the airport. he didn't express his love to her but he did show her, by, well, kissing her. after a few month, she got a news said that the boys from the her school was having a vacation near her house. through, she scream!
even it's a weird ending. but at least it satisfied me. i was so envy of that girl. she got her admire, she have a best friend, she met a lot of boys from that school that makes her happy, she have the most beautiful memories in her life but most importantly, she have what she wanted that is she had bring back a smile to her admire and also to herself.
Well, if you don't understand what i'm saying, you better watch it. it has English sub too,Hanakimi no kimitachi e. but now, all i wanna say is, i want to have a very best memory in mylife with my friends and my, admire. Bullshit! I just split it! Got to sleep! this feeling is boiling in me! Arrrrhhhhh!!!
LadyShadoWish
Monday 3 December 2012
All That I'm Living For- Evanescence- lyrics
This song are so meaning to me.. (don't get me wrong, okay?)
Lady ShadoWish
Sunday 18 November 2012
My Love (Poem)
Hides in the meadow without anyone see
and wait for the prince to come along,
Rest myself on the beautiful of the night,
until the rain fall and he finally come to me.
Come, my love and dance with me.
With the soft grasses beneath me.
Dance until your feet out of energy.
Then rest yourself on the grass with me
Don't be afraid to lay on it willingly
Because you will missed the dark blue sky swaying.
With the green of the grass and the blue of the sky,
Come and hold me in your arms.
With the coldness of the wind and the warm of the sun,
Come and kiss me until it never ends.
P.S I'm not really good in writing poems but hey, what cross your mind is precious. hehehe, hope you'll like it..
LadyShadoWish
and wait for the prince to come along,
Rest myself on the beautiful of the night,
until the rain fall and he finally come to me.
Come, my love and dance with me.
With the soft grasses beneath me.
Dance until your feet out of energy.
Then rest yourself on the grass with me
Don't be afraid to lay on it willingly
Because you will missed the dark blue sky swaying.
With the green of the grass and the blue of the sky,
Come and hold me in your arms.
With the coldness of the wind and the warm of the sun,
Come and kiss me until it never ends.
P.S I'm not really good in writing poems but hey, what cross your mind is precious. hehehe, hope you'll like it..
LadyShadoWish
Thursday 15 November 2012
The Unexpected
Assalam,
hey, you guys! How are ya? well, I hope you're fine and as healthy as an ox. Me? well, let's take it that I'm not okay. Why? Because my dad is inside the hospital and I'm "baby-sitting" him. I'm not saying that I'm not okay because I'm taking care of my dad, I'm not okay because I'm seeing him suffer with his sickness. Let me ask you, have you seen a movie when someone that they love been shoot or having an accident or sickness or anything that bring them to the hospital? Guess what? I been there three days ago and I don't want it to happen again. It's hurt me so badly. My dad was having a strok (well, that's what the doctor think) His was at his office when he realised he can't move his left eyes. He was taking to his staff until suddendtly his cigarette slip from his fingers. He went to the hospital (which thank god it near his office). The Doc check and said he had once had an heart attack.
It was shocking for me, actually. Never expect that one day, one of my family will having this kind of sickness. But it's all had been planed by Allah SWT Himself. I just tried so hard to accept that there is some benefits on what is happening. I think I found one reason why this happen: for my dad to stop smoking. Hahaha.. (Dad gonna be mad of me if he knows I'm saying this anyway)
So now, he's getting better (for now). I just wish and pray that it will never happen again. Never. I have to admit that I'm not ready to loose him. I still want him to see me graduate, go to the university in Russia, see me being a pilot or an aerobatic engineering, and I guess many more! I love my dad so much. He is my mentor and forever he will be.
I think that's it. Need to save my tears, eh? Gudnite/Morning
LadyShadoWish
hey, you guys! How are ya? well, I hope you're fine and as healthy as an ox. Me? well, let's take it that I'm not okay. Why? Because my dad is inside the hospital and I'm "baby-sitting" him. I'm not saying that I'm not okay because I'm taking care of my dad, I'm not okay because I'm seeing him suffer with his sickness. Let me ask you, have you seen a movie when someone that they love been shoot or having an accident or sickness or anything that bring them to the hospital? Guess what? I been there three days ago and I don't want it to happen again. It's hurt me so badly. My dad was having a strok (well, that's what the doctor think) His was at his office when he realised he can't move his left eyes. He was taking to his staff until suddendtly his cigarette slip from his fingers. He went to the hospital (which thank god it near his office). The Doc check and said he had once had an heart attack.
It was shocking for me, actually. Never expect that one day, one of my family will having this kind of sickness. But it's all had been planed by Allah SWT Himself. I just tried so hard to accept that there is some benefits on what is happening. I think I found one reason why this happen: for my dad to stop smoking. Hahaha.. (Dad gonna be mad of me if he knows I'm saying this anyway)
So now, he's getting better (for now). I just wish and pray that it will never happen again. Never. I have to admit that I'm not ready to loose him. I still want him to see me graduate, go to the university in Russia, see me being a pilot or an aerobatic engineering, and I guess many more! I love my dad so much. He is my mentor and forever he will be.
I think that's it. Need to save my tears, eh? Gudnite/Morning
LadyShadoWish
Tuesday 6 November 2012
Be Myself? How?
Assalam,
God! Now I start to hate my life. I don't blame anyone, even, him, the one that I always Love since I was born. I'm struggle again, between my parents and friends. I hate it! I hate stuck in between. Staring today, I won't chat with my friends anymore, just to satisfied my parents, I guess especially my dad. I have to be responsible now. Both my brother have left to continue their study, it leave me and my two little brother and sister. Not just that, I must be girl now, real one. (I'm not a leebian, okay?) I mean, I have to change now, sit properly, tidy the whole house, cooking (if I get the chance), n many more girly things (which sometimes or always I hate being too much girl things in me) I'm not saying I hate being a girl. Trust me, I'm glad what I am now but then, sometimes I hate it. Because being this real me, making my parents hate me.
I know you guys gonna say "Be yourself", "Ignore all the comments" n so much more but then, who would you choose? Your parents or you friends? your parents or you lover? Some of people, out there were dying to say lover than parents but for me, better choose parents and I think you know why.
You know sometimes I wish I was a robot because i'm kindda good on listening to someone's orders. But then, I'm grateful I'm a human because I can feel pain. Once I have told you guys I love pain, isn't it? Well, I still kindda love it even it keeps punching my chest. Although, it doesn't matter. What's really matter is being myself (well, my 'girl-self'). I can't listen to myself yet, I;m still young and not ready to decide things. I can't even decided what to where this morning! So it better listen up with my parents 'wisdom'.
I guess that's it. I can't tell you more since I already tell you many things from my heart. I can't take the chance to empty my heart by telling everything over here. so Dosvidaniya' and Goodnight.
LadyShadoWish
God! Now I start to hate my life. I don't blame anyone, even, him, the one that I always Love since I was born. I'm struggle again, between my parents and friends. I hate it! I hate stuck in between. Staring today, I won't chat with my friends anymore, just to satisfied my parents, I guess especially my dad. I have to be responsible now. Both my brother have left to continue their study, it leave me and my two little brother and sister. Not just that, I must be girl now, real one. (I'm not a leebian, okay?) I mean, I have to change now, sit properly, tidy the whole house, cooking (if I get the chance), n many more girly things (which sometimes or always I hate being too much girl things in me) I'm not saying I hate being a girl. Trust me, I'm glad what I am now but then, sometimes I hate it. Because being this real me, making my parents hate me.
I know you guys gonna say "Be yourself", "Ignore all the comments" n so much more but then, who would you choose? Your parents or you friends? your parents or you lover? Some of people, out there were dying to say lover than parents but for me, better choose parents and I think you know why.
You know sometimes I wish I was a robot because i'm kindda good on listening to someone's orders. But then, I'm grateful I'm a human because I can feel pain. Once I have told you guys I love pain, isn't it? Well, I still kindda love it even it keeps punching my chest. Although, it doesn't matter. What's really matter is being myself (well, my 'girl-self'). I can't listen to myself yet, I;m still young and not ready to decide things. I can't even decided what to where this morning! So it better listen up with my parents 'wisdom'.
I guess that's it. I can't tell you more since I already tell you many things from my heart. I can't take the chance to empty my heart by telling everything over here. so Dosvidaniya' and Goodnight.
LadyShadoWish
Saturday 3 November 2012
Filling the Time
Assalam,
hey! What's up dude? Sorry I didn't update anything. I was very busy with showbiz. Hahaha.. My music school gang have to play 'Gamelan', that is a Malay tradition musics. And thank God! It have last!! My shoulders, butt, waist, backbone, everything from inside out were killing me! Now, that is over, I can fill my time with sleeping, writing, singing, gaming, reading and going crazy!
So let's begin with my novel. Well, I still haven't finish my third book but I'm working very hard to finish it. I didn't finish it yet because I was writing/copy back my first novel into my laptop and add a few more detail.
Then, a few problem which I wish I could tell you everything but I'll give u a bit. I hate being alone but I hate being together. Who ever that expert in relationship, I think they might understand what am I saying. I kept thinking, you know. I been thinking what have I done to myself , family and friends. There are sweets memory but with, sin. I wish I could tell it right now but, I kindda have the habits about keeping my feelings in my heart. I'm a good Secret Keeper. Hahaha!
Well, it holiday in Malaysia. and I got the feeling that it gonna be a very boring holidays since my parents were so busy with their work and my fav brother isn't here anymore! He had continue his study in Desaru. Now, I'm a lonely girl. My sister and my younger brother are the only left but they are, sometime okay, very annoying. (I hope you are not reading this, dad)
Well, I think that's it. I got no more ideas. So this is where I say goodbye. Dosvidaniya!
Lady ShadoWish
hey! What's up dude? Sorry I didn't update anything. I was very busy with showbiz. Hahaha.. My music school gang have to play 'Gamelan', that is a Malay tradition musics. And thank God! It have last!! My shoulders, butt, waist, backbone, everything from inside out were killing me! Now, that is over, I can fill my time with sleeping, writing, singing, gaming, reading and going crazy!
So let's begin with my novel. Well, I still haven't finish my third book but I'm working very hard to finish it. I didn't finish it yet because I was writing/copy back my first novel into my laptop and add a few more detail.
Then, a few problem which I wish I could tell you everything but I'll give u a bit. I hate being alone but I hate being together. Who ever that expert in relationship, I think they might understand what am I saying. I kept thinking, you know. I been thinking what have I done to myself , family and friends. There are sweets memory but with, sin. I wish I could tell it right now but, I kindda have the habits about keeping my feelings in my heart. I'm a good Secret Keeper. Hahaha!
Well, it holiday in Malaysia. and I got the feeling that it gonna be a very boring holidays since my parents were so busy with their work and my fav brother isn't here anymore! He had continue his study in Desaru. Now, I'm a lonely girl. My sister and my younger brother are the only left but they are, sometime okay, very annoying. (I hope you are not reading this, dad)
Well, I think that's it. I got no more ideas. So this is where I say goodbye. Dosvidaniya!
Lady ShadoWish
Sunday 7 October 2012
Here Comes The Nightmare!
Assalam,
hey, again. I'm back with the worst emotional in the world (no, in my life) : Numb, blank, blur or anything that has the same meaning with numb. Why? well, my biggest exam in this year is only in two day!!! I felt like I was waiting for my trial in this small cage! Sometimes I feel I wanna get over it quickly but I just afraid that my marks gonna be bad.
Okay, I don't know what i'm talking or writing about right now. All I wanna say is how numb I felt this days. I eat like a zombie! Walk like a robot! And talk like I have no brain! It frustrating, you know. I feel I wanna run away but I don't like being a coward. I still have problem with Mr. Math. I can even think properly right now and more frustrating is I kept think the negative things. Sometimes, I feel I wanna climb a tree then hang upside down. Or do crazy thing with my brothers and sister, like dancing 'Oppa Gangnam Style'! But I'm a big girl now (that's what my father said). You gotta think straight, girl! Humph!
I'm losing my mind now. I need a break or something. Thanks for reading my stupid blank post. Dosvidaniya'
Lady ShadoWish
P.S To all PMR candidates, I wish good luck to all of you. May we gain the most impressive result in this year! Good Luck!
hey, again. I'm back with the worst emotional in the world (no, in my life) : Numb, blank, blur or anything that has the same meaning with numb. Why? well, my biggest exam in this year is only in two day!!! I felt like I was waiting for my trial in this small cage! Sometimes I feel I wanna get over it quickly but I just afraid that my marks gonna be bad.
Okay, I don't know what i'm talking or writing about right now. All I wanna say is how numb I felt this days. I eat like a zombie! Walk like a robot! And talk like I have no brain! It frustrating, you know. I feel I wanna run away but I don't like being a coward. I still have problem with Mr. Math. I can even think properly right now and more frustrating is I kept think the negative things. Sometimes, I feel I wanna climb a tree then hang upside down. Or do crazy thing with my brothers and sister, like dancing 'Oppa Gangnam Style'! But I'm a big girl now (that's what my father said). You gotta think straight, girl! Humph!
I'm losing my mind now. I need a break or something. Thanks for reading my stupid blank post. Dosvidaniya'
Lady ShadoWish
P.S To all PMR candidates, I wish good luck to all of you. May we gain the most impressive result in this year! Good Luck!
Saturday 22 September 2012
Apologize
Assalam,
hey! I'm back, with, pain and sorrow in my heart. Why? Well, Remember my last update (BrokenHearted)? Well, the boy read it. Let me get this straight, man. It is not your fault that I start to un-focus, it not your fault that my father won't let me chat with you, it is so damn not your fault! If you keep on blaming yourselves, well, it useless. Because I'm a girl, that been trained not to cause damage on someone dreams and I don't want to be the girl that cause someone's dreams disappear! I just want to make people, around me, happy. What I'm trying to say is, just, don't worry about me or don't blame yourselves on what had happen to me.
Hey, remember when Amin Idris said 'we need stress to success'? You just need to change the word 'stress' into 'pain' and 'success' into 'keep on living'. To all that reading this, don't get me wrong okay? I'm not making a suicide if I had no pain. At least when I'm happy with all my friends happy, I'll just write a poem. I wish could write a happy poem right now but all I see is sorrow so I guess next time then.
I guess that's it. Bye now.
Through darkness of night, I feel no fears.
Through darkness of night, I feel the tears.
Please!
Let the rain pour, to wash my face.
Let the rain pour, to erase my pain.
LadyShadoWish
hey! I'm back, with, pain and sorrow in my heart. Why? Well, Remember my last update (BrokenHearted)? Well, the boy read it. Let me get this straight, man. It is not your fault that I start to un-focus, it not your fault that my father won't let me chat with you, it is so damn not your fault! If you keep on blaming yourselves, well, it useless. Because I'm a girl, that been trained not to cause damage on someone dreams and I don't want to be the girl that cause someone's dreams disappear! I just want to make people, around me, happy. What I'm trying to say is, just, don't worry about me or don't blame yourselves on what had happen to me.
Hey, remember when Amin Idris said 'we need stress to success'? You just need to change the word 'stress' into 'pain' and 'success' into 'keep on living'. To all that reading this, don't get me wrong okay? I'm not making a suicide if I had no pain. At least when I'm happy with all my friends happy, I'll just write a poem. I wish could write a happy poem right now but all I see is sorrow so I guess next time then.
I guess that's it. Bye now.
Through darkness of night, I feel no fears.
Through darkness of night, I feel the tears.
Please!
Let the rain pour, to wash my face.
Let the rain pour, to erase my pain.
LadyShadoWish
Sunday 16 September 2012
BrokenHearted
Assalam,
Hey, guys. Sorry I didn't write anything last month. I was very busy with studying (I think). So back to the title : Brokenhearted. Yeah, I took the word from Karmin because I am brokenhearted right now. First, after trial exam we have an Open Day for teacher to talk with our parents. I, erm, was so close with this boy because I guess we understand each other more like a friend. Then, once, our teacher reminded us not to be very close so we do as she said. On the Open Day, I thought she would not say about our issue because it past already! But she told them, my mom and his parents. I felt like I been betrayed by my own mentor. I know she want to prevent us from bad things but why must she bring along my parents? I felt more a shame with the boy! Feels like there is a scar on half of my face. I could still feel the pain! It so Pain!
Thank god that my father trust on me. He told me not to do that again but the saddest thing is, I can't talk to the boy, like almost forever. Doooom! I hate to say this but I am bound with him. I hate it because it make me weak! So weak until I didn't know myself. But I guess I already liked him, Okay, maybe loved him but no more than couple things. Now, my father forbidden me from talk to him, Skype him or even sent a massage. I kindda frustrated but it the best way to reach my dream. If I want to be pilot and give my father a boat and my mother a red sport car I must not let anything stop my way, including my feeling.
I wish to told him like this but he was kind of believe that we can be together (awkward!) even he knew that, erm (I hate this word) marriage is on Allah's will.
Okay! That's it. I'm not gonna let this feeling bubble up in my chest! So dosvidaniya'.
Lady ShadoWish
Hey, guys. Sorry I didn't write anything last month. I was very busy with studying (I think). So back to the title : Brokenhearted. Yeah, I took the word from Karmin because I am brokenhearted right now. First, after trial exam we have an Open Day for teacher to talk with our parents. I, erm, was so close with this boy because I guess we understand each other more like a friend. Then, once, our teacher reminded us not to be very close so we do as she said. On the Open Day, I thought she would not say about our issue because it past already! But she told them, my mom and his parents. I felt like I been betrayed by my own mentor. I know she want to prevent us from bad things but why must she bring along my parents? I felt more a shame with the boy! Feels like there is a scar on half of my face. I could still feel the pain! It so Pain!
Thank god that my father trust on me. He told me not to do that again but the saddest thing is, I can't talk to the boy, like almost forever. Doooom! I hate to say this but I am bound with him. I hate it because it make me weak! So weak until I didn't know myself. But I guess I already liked him, Okay, maybe loved him but no more than couple things. Now, my father forbidden me from talk to him, Skype him or even sent a massage. I kindda frustrated but it the best way to reach my dream. If I want to be pilot and give my father a boat and my mother a red sport car I must not let anything stop my way, including my feeling.
I wish to told him like this but he was kind of believe that we can be together (awkward!) even he knew that, erm (I hate this word) marriage is on Allah's will.
Okay! That's it. I'm not gonna let this feeling bubble up in my chest! So dosvidaniya'.
Lady ShadoWish
Saturday 18 August 2012
Characters
Marie Marcus
- She was a Huntress (a vampire hunter) but after she became a vampire, she discovered that she have a witch blood in her vein.
- Got a few extra abilities when she was a human such as great strength, fast healing, great speed, great eyes sight and a mind reader
- She is six and a half foot height with almost skinny body but look like a model too
- She likes to keep her secrets so no one would know her tiny weakness
- When it comes to kill something, sometimes she gets so excited because she likes it.
- She have a long and a bit curly black hair
- She has a necklace, a blue gem or stone that shaped oval with a soft silver around the edge of the stone that brings her inspiration and memories about her family.
- She is the second child in her family
- She also been called the Dark assassin, Lady ShadoWish, the Lost Huntress and the Dark Knight
- She love raining and dark places than having the bright sunlight
- She likes to wear something simple and ready for a fight along with her leather jacket
- She was hard to love someone except she care someone than love them, until she met Alex Blake.
Alexander Blake
- He was a normal human that been change by his own sister
- He got the abilities of a vampire and an extra power, a mind reader (but he can't read her mind because of some reason that even Marie can't found the answers)
- He is six and a half foot height but more higher than Marie in a few inch
- He likes to uncover someone secret just to know them better
- He likes to drink human blood just to split his anger and for fun but he manage to control his thirst by drinking animal blood.
-When he start to kill someone, he'll become wild and more like a true vampire
- He have a lapiz lazuli ring that been covered by a few silver vein and he also make the same shape for Marie
-He is a second and last child in his family
-He likes to wear all in black and with his leather jacket
-He likes to flirt but he flirt more on Marie
-He love Marie when he first saw her.
That's it for today. I'll give the others tomorrow, insyaallah
- She was a Huntress (a vampire hunter) but after she became a vampire, she discovered that she have a witch blood in her vein.
- Got a few extra abilities when she was a human such as great strength, fast healing, great speed, great eyes sight and a mind reader
- She is six and a half foot height with almost skinny body but look like a model too
- She likes to keep her secrets so no one would know her tiny weakness
- When it comes to kill something, sometimes she gets so excited because she likes it.
- She have a long and a bit curly black hair
- She has a necklace, a blue gem or stone that shaped oval with a soft silver around the edge of the stone that brings her inspiration and memories about her family.
- She is the second child in her family
- She also been called the Dark assassin, Lady ShadoWish, the Lost Huntress and the Dark Knight
- She love raining and dark places than having the bright sunlight
- She likes to wear something simple and ready for a fight along with her leather jacket
- She was hard to love someone except she care someone than love them, until she met Alex Blake.
Alexander Blake
- He was a normal human that been change by his own sister
- He got the abilities of a vampire and an extra power, a mind reader (but he can't read her mind because of some reason that even Marie can't found the answers)
- He is six and a half foot height but more higher than Marie in a few inch
- He likes to uncover someone secret just to know them better
- He likes to drink human blood just to split his anger and for fun but he manage to control his thirst by drinking animal blood.
-When he start to kill someone, he'll become wild and more like a true vampire
- He have a lapiz lazuli ring that been covered by a few silver vein and he also make the same shape for Marie
-He is a second and last child in his family
-He likes to wear all in black and with his leather jacket
-He likes to flirt but he flirt more on Marie
-He love Marie when he first saw her.
That's it for today. I'll give the others tomorrow, insyaallah
Sway...
Asaalam,
Hey, again. So today would be the last Ramadhan (fasting) and tomorrow would be the first Syawal (Raya) to all Muslim around the world ( I think so).
I don't know what to talk today but I start to missed my friends in JB. Nothing special happen today except my grandmother cooked 'Tempoyak' for me! Seriously, it the first time I was so addicted to it and this is the first time I eat it in this year! I never eat it before because I thought it would be so spicy but then my father told me it taste so good so I decided to take a chance. Yurp, it so damn gooood!
Okay, I don't what to write except about the character in my novel (I'll put that in another post). Bye, now.
Hey, again. So today would be the last Ramadhan (fasting) and tomorrow would be the first Syawal (Raya) to all Muslim around the world ( I think so).
I don't know what to talk today but I start to missed my friends in JB. Nothing special happen today except my grandmother cooked 'Tempoyak' for me! Seriously, it the first time I was so addicted to it and this is the first time I eat it in this year! I never eat it before because I thought it would be so spicy but then my father told me it taste so good so I decided to take a chance. Yurp, it so damn gooood!
Okay, I don't what to write except about the character in my novel (I'll put that in another post). Bye, now.
Thursday 16 August 2012
Chasing the News
Assalam,
Hey, you guys I'm back! Sorry I didn't write anything last two months. I was, busy studying (almost), reading, writing my novel (Opss!), thinking and dreaming. Besides, I can't turn on my laptop cause my mother didn't let me because I had my PMR TRIAL. Yeah, Trial. Finally it's over but BEWARE: That is just the beginning, my friends. That is just Trial, not PMR so don't be so happy.
So we are now almost at the end of Ramadhan and another TWO days it will be Syawal (Hari Raya). I am half excited and half not excited about it. I wish I could tell you guys the reason but I don't know how to say it.
Then, I got a little boys problem. It not a big problem but it kind of bugging me and I don't like it. I'm a lost girl. I can't think straight or clearly. The only thing I can is imagining. I'm still working on my third novel, which is kind of hard because sometimes I can't found the words to write or to make it real. I kept repeating the same words. But I guess I don't mind. As long as still sexy. Hahaha! Oppsyy!
I just got back from Jusco and hey, my father brought me a teddy bear! I was joking with him actually when I saw one cute teddy bear. Then, I said to my father "Abah! I want this" But then he smile and nod. I was a little shocked. Though, I know why my father brought it. ;) Wanna see it?
Cute, isn't it?
I'm gonna keep this teddy bear until I grown up. I'm gonna bring it everywhere I go especially in Russia. From now on, this little buddy would be my inspiration to reach my dream.
That's it, I guess. I'll write more if I got an Idea.
Assalam...
Lady ShadoWish/ Blue Dragon
Hey, you guys I'm back! Sorry I didn't write anything last two months. I was, busy studying (almost), reading, writing my novel (Opss!), thinking and dreaming. Besides, I can't turn on my laptop cause my mother didn't let me because I had my PMR TRIAL. Yeah, Trial. Finally it's over but BEWARE: That is just the beginning, my friends. That is just Trial, not PMR so don't be so happy.
So we are now almost at the end of Ramadhan and another TWO days it will be Syawal (Hari Raya). I am half excited and half not excited about it. I wish I could tell you guys the reason but I don't know how to say it.
Then, I got a little boys problem. It not a big problem but it kind of bugging me and I don't like it. I'm a lost girl. I can't think straight or clearly. The only thing I can is imagining. I'm still working on my third novel, which is kind of hard because sometimes I can't found the words to write or to make it real. I kept repeating the same words. But I guess I don't mind. As long as still sexy. Hahaha! Oppsyy!
I just got back from Jusco and hey, my father brought me a teddy bear! I was joking with him actually when I saw one cute teddy bear. Then, I said to my father "Abah! I want this" But then he smile and nod. I was a little shocked. Though, I know why my father brought it. ;) Wanna see it?
Cute, isn't it?
I'm gonna keep this teddy bear until I grown up. I'm gonna bring it everywhere I go especially in Russia. From now on, this little buddy would be my inspiration to reach my dream.
That's it, I guess. I'll write more if I got an Idea.
Assalam...
Lady ShadoWish/ Blue Dragon
Friday 29 June 2012
Heartache
Assalam,
heartache? Well, that something... erm, hard? I don't know. It is hard but sometimes this pain is easy. Of course, easy to get. Some people got it easy and hard to accept it. Some, like me, easy to get it and accept it with an open arms.. weird but it true.. Through, heartache is not just a pain, it a secrets. The secrets that you keep inside yourself, don't want anyone to know your weakness, don't want anyone to know that you're unhappy, and don't want to let any of your friend feel guilty for you.
I admit it, I keep a lot of secrets. Some I store it in my head but some, I didn't know I store it in my heart. Pain but I need it. It like drug to me now.. A drug that only I know what it feels like.. I love to share it but I don't think people can handle it or even understand the drug completely. So better keep it in myself because it useless when I tell somebody. I don't want people to feel sorry for me! I just want them to understand.
Now, I guess it too late to tell about my secrets, fears or anything that had been store in my heart. I think it been lockdown and will open it when the day come. Secret is now like a school bag hanging in my heart. Getting heavier until one day it drop and I'll become insane. For all my life, all I want to do is being HONEST.
Diana Amalina Jamaluddin
heartache? Well, that something... erm, hard? I don't know. It is hard but sometimes this pain is easy. Of course, easy to get. Some people got it easy and hard to accept it. Some, like me, easy to get it and accept it with an open arms.. weird but it true.. Through, heartache is not just a pain, it a secrets. The secrets that you keep inside yourself, don't want anyone to know your weakness, don't want anyone to know that you're unhappy, and don't want to let any of your friend feel guilty for you.
I admit it, I keep a lot of secrets. Some I store it in my head but some, I didn't know I store it in my heart. Pain but I need it. It like drug to me now.. A drug that only I know what it feels like.. I love to share it but I don't think people can handle it or even understand the drug completely. So better keep it in myself because it useless when I tell somebody. I don't want people to feel sorry for me! I just want them to understand.
Now, I guess it too late to tell about my secrets, fears or anything that had been store in my heart. I think it been lockdown and will open it when the day come. Secret is now like a school bag hanging in my heart. Getting heavier until one day it drop and I'll become insane. For all my life, all I want to do is being HONEST.
Diana Amalina Jamaluddin
Sunday 10 June 2012
Show Me The Way
Assalam,
hey, everyone! I didn't update last week because I was on vacation and I was out ideas. I don't know what to write anymore except telling you guys that I'm on my way to write my third little fantasy novel. About what? You guys will know it when I'm done writing.
Ladno' (meaning is okay in Russia), back to the title of today. Honestly, I feel kindda confused and lost with... I don't know, something. This something is really making me numb. I can't think properly. I try to search of this cause of 'something' but I couldn't found anything. So the conclusion is that I feel lost in my own mind, heart and soul. I can't feel my body anymore! It scare me!!
Okay, I think I just freak out so I need my sleep. Tomorrow school start, again and can't wait to hear my teacher shouting. LOL. Whatever.. Dosvidaniya'! (meaning Goodbye in Russian. I Getting more addicted with Russian language.)
Blue Dragon Warrior/ Marie Marcus/ Lady ShadoWish
hey, everyone! I didn't update last week because I was on vacation and I was out ideas. I don't know what to write anymore except telling you guys that I'm on my way to write my third little fantasy novel. About what? You guys will know it when I'm done writing.
Ladno' (meaning is okay in Russia), back to the title of today. Honestly, I feel kindda confused and lost with... I don't know, something. This something is really making me numb. I can't think properly. I try to search of this cause of 'something' but I couldn't found anything. So the conclusion is that I feel lost in my own mind, heart and soul. I can't feel my body anymore! It scare me!!
Okay, I think I just freak out so I need my sleep. Tomorrow school start, again and can't wait to hear my teacher shouting. LOL. Whatever.. Dosvidaniya'! (meaning Goodbye in Russian. I Getting more addicted with Russian language.)
Blue Dragon Warrior/ Marie Marcus/ Lady ShadoWish
Saturday 19 May 2012
Today Teenagers
Assalam,
hey, you guys! It me, Diana/Marie/Blue-Dragon/Lady ShadoWish/Shadow-Serpant. I'm kindda busy lately because I got exam, MID YEAR EXAM, which is very scares me because I feels soooooo relax. Seriously, it bother me, a lot!
Anyway, the one that really scares me more than a lot is todays teenagers. I'm scared because I seen, witness, and even experience all the wrong and negative thing. Even a little negative could be the biggest negative such as lies, disobey our parents order and many more that I couldn't explain it. Among this negatives, the most that I afraid is about girl and boy having relationship.
I'm not saying it wrong but, it could be wrong if the couple used the relationship to do something that their heart wants without thinking properly. For example, I witness my friends drown theirselves in the name of their lover! That is sooo damn wrong!!! I almost cry when I witness it, wishing that I had never witness any of my friend that has a weak mind, so weak! Most of all, my friends willing to lie and make a fight with their own parents! Once their parents shouted at them they answer back with a shout too. That's not how it work!!!
I know it feel so tired to listen all night and day as our parents keep talking and command us to do what they said. I know how it feels but sometimes, our parents told us this and that because they know better than us!!! Teenagers seems to confused this. "What prove that shows our parents know better that us?" They know better than us because they seen the changing in our world. They experiance it before us, they witness it before us and they can predict what would happen when they do this and that. I know it old-fashion but at least they think straight.
Now? Teenagers only think about they feelings. It not wrong to think about our feelings but we need to read our feelings very properly. Feelings are sooo great, I admit but it also make us blind, deaf and numb. Someone said "When you feel something from your heart, don't just let it shout first without your mind permission. You have to discuss first about that feeling with your mind so the mind could translate it weather the feeling is worth it or not."
I wish and pray to Allah SWT, that one day when I witness or heard one of my friends shout "I missed him, my boyfriend!", I could just slap her hardly on her face but I couldn't. It not my right. But honestly, it feels soooo damn annoying when a girl is so obsess about her boyfriend! It annoying because he just a boy! A human boy. Why would she be so proud about her boyfriend? Because he is handsome? Hell! There are million of handsome boy in this planet! I hate it! I hate witness my friends are so weak about understanding their feeling properly. Masyaallah!
I don't want to talk about it anymore. It makes me really want to slap my friends face right now because of their weakness.. One person said "DO NOT let the word love drown you, and DO NOT let the word love control you. Let it be YOU the one who control the love and the one who control their feeling."
Assalam..
(the meaning of feeling in this post is 'nafsu'. I don't know in english but I think it call desire)
Lady ShadoWish
hey, you guys! It me, Diana/Marie/Blue-Dragon/Lady ShadoWish/Shadow-Serpant. I'm kindda busy lately because I got exam, MID YEAR EXAM, which is very scares me because I feels soooooo relax. Seriously, it bother me, a lot!
Anyway, the one that really scares me more than a lot is todays teenagers. I'm scared because I seen, witness, and even experience all the wrong and negative thing. Even a little negative could be the biggest negative such as lies, disobey our parents order and many more that I couldn't explain it. Among this negatives, the most that I afraid is about girl and boy having relationship.
I'm not saying it wrong but, it could be wrong if the couple used the relationship to do something that their heart wants without thinking properly. For example, I witness my friends drown theirselves in the name of their lover! That is sooo damn wrong!!! I almost cry when I witness it, wishing that I had never witness any of my friend that has a weak mind, so weak! Most of all, my friends willing to lie and make a fight with their own parents! Once their parents shouted at them they answer back with a shout too. That's not how it work!!!
I know it feel so tired to listen all night and day as our parents keep talking and command us to do what they said. I know how it feels but sometimes, our parents told us this and that because they know better than us!!! Teenagers seems to confused this. "What prove that shows our parents know better that us?" They know better than us because they seen the changing in our world. They experiance it before us, they witness it before us and they can predict what would happen when they do this and that. I know it old-fashion but at least they think straight.
Now? Teenagers only think about they feelings. It not wrong to think about our feelings but we need to read our feelings very properly. Feelings are sooo great, I admit but it also make us blind, deaf and numb. Someone said "When you feel something from your heart, don't just let it shout first without your mind permission. You have to discuss first about that feeling with your mind so the mind could translate it weather the feeling is worth it or not."
I wish and pray to Allah SWT, that one day when I witness or heard one of my friends shout "I missed him, my boyfriend!", I could just slap her hardly on her face but I couldn't. It not my right. But honestly, it feels soooo damn annoying when a girl is so obsess about her boyfriend! It annoying because he just a boy! A human boy. Why would she be so proud about her boyfriend? Because he is handsome? Hell! There are million of handsome boy in this planet! I hate it! I hate witness my friends are so weak about understanding their feeling properly. Masyaallah!
I don't want to talk about it anymore. It makes me really want to slap my friends face right now because of their weakness.. One person said "DO NOT let the word love drown you, and DO NOT let the word love control you. Let it be YOU the one who control the love and the one who control their feeling."
Assalam..
(the meaning of feeling in this post is 'nafsu'. I don't know in english but I think it call desire)
Lady ShadoWish
Wednesday 2 May 2012
Holes Inside
Assalam,
a few days ago, my strugle start to rise, again. Friends, parents, education, time and myself. My biggest strugle is friends. Well, I realise had always been used by my friends in many ways, but I just do what they say like a gooood dog. I wish I could say to them that I hate being used but, I'm tooo nice. I don't want to bring them down so I swallow my feeling inside. God it so pain now!
My strugle with my parents isn't bad but sometimes it is. Education? Well, I'm kinda frustrated with that. It May now and my mid-year exam is soo around the conner and only less than 4 months, my biggest exam will come. Should I call it my Doom exam? Because if I fail to get straight As, I would be shame! My family are count on me now, to make our family's name rise and proud. Even they didn't torture me like I was 12 years old but I know they want to less my tension but turns out, I became more tension without the torture. (Yeah, I know. It weird)
Well, I think I have mentioned about time and myself? Huh, that's the hard one to explain but one thing for sure it connected with friends, parents, education and time. i got no one to speak or split it out about this, well, except one person. But that person doesn't understand my habits or myself. Hahaha! I tell you, no one in the school understand me, which is good and bad. Good because I'm the rare one in the school, Bad because no one know what I really wanted.
Well, God knows what going on with me. ;)
That's it for today, I guess. Bye
Lady ShadoWish~
P.S - I'm on my way to write my third novel so wish me luck! Hahahha
a few days ago, my strugle start to rise, again. Friends, parents, education, time and myself. My biggest strugle is friends. Well, I realise had always been used by my friends in many ways, but I just do what they say like a gooood dog. I wish I could say to them that I hate being used but, I'm tooo nice. I don't want to bring them down so I swallow my feeling inside. God it so pain now!
My strugle with my parents isn't bad but sometimes it is. Education? Well, I'm kinda frustrated with that. It May now and my mid-year exam is soo around the conner and only less than 4 months, my biggest exam will come. Should I call it my Doom exam? Because if I fail to get straight As, I would be shame! My family are count on me now, to make our family's name rise and proud. Even they didn't torture me like I was 12 years old but I know they want to less my tension but turns out, I became more tension without the torture. (Yeah, I know. It weird)
Well, I think I have mentioned about time and myself? Huh, that's the hard one to explain but one thing for sure it connected with friends, parents, education and time. i got no one to speak or split it out about this, well, except one person. But that person doesn't understand my habits or myself. Hahaha! I tell you, no one in the school understand me, which is good and bad. Good because I'm the rare one in the school, Bad because no one know what I really wanted.
Well, God knows what going on with me. ;)
That's it for today, I guess. Bye
Lady ShadoWish~
P.S - I'm on my way to write my third novel so wish me luck! Hahahha
Wow!
Assalam,
hey, you guys. Sorry i didn't update a thing in my blog, even there is no one read my update but let pretend that someone did my update and hey, new dashboard? I almost thought I had the wrong website! It kinda weird to me but I'll do my best to understand it. Hehe.. That's all for this title, I'll continue with another title which I pray so hard not to talk about it in public but I cound't stand it anymore. I need to stand my ground! Bye!
Lady ShadoWish~
hey, you guys. Sorry i didn't update a thing in my blog, even there is no one read my update but let pretend that someone did my update and hey, new dashboard? I almost thought I had the wrong website! It kinda weird to me but I'll do my best to understand it. Hehe.. That's all for this title, I'll continue with another title which I pray so hard not to talk about it in public but I cound't stand it anymore. I need to stand my ground! Bye!
Lady ShadoWish~
Sunday 1 April 2012
Dark Night : First Quest
This second book of Dark Night is about after the transformation from huntress to vampire, Marie had vow with her spirit witch, to serve her and protect the hunter and huntress and also witches. She live with her husband Alex happily until one night Lydia came and give her first mission to save a girl, Nicole Benson from her own twin brother, Nicholas Benson.
Marie and Alex travel around to search her and found her with her friends, the hunter and huntress. Nicole's friends knew who Marie is as the Elder Hunter called her the Lost Huntress because of her betrayal to the duty and for becoming a vampire and so they wanted to kill her but Nicole stop them and explain that her great-great-great acestor, Lydia, had send Marie to protect them and even teach them to be a witch and hunters. Soon, Marie find out that one of Nicole's friends, Selyen Sylvester is the last of her sister's generation and she is diffrent from the other huntress.
They journey continue on searching for an old powerful spell book that Lydia had hide in a cave where it been guard by a friendly werewolves clan that serve for Lydia. An expectedly, Marie found out that her old best friend, Samuel MacGate, is a werewolf. After they found the spell book, they decided to kill Nicole's twin forever and found out it wasn't easy as they both, Nicole and Nicholas share the same bound that if one of them die, the other will die too. Marie had to do something so that Nicole will alive and Nicholas will die forever.
Hahaha. That it, I think.. Hope one day I'll get the chance to publish it. ;)
Bye!
Lady ShadoWish
Marie and Alex travel around to search her and found her with her friends, the hunter and huntress. Nicole's friends knew who Marie is as the Elder Hunter called her the Lost Huntress because of her betrayal to the duty and for becoming a vampire and so they wanted to kill her but Nicole stop them and explain that her great-great-great acestor, Lydia, had send Marie to protect them and even teach them to be a witch and hunters. Soon, Marie find out that one of Nicole's friends, Selyen Sylvester is the last of her sister's generation and she is diffrent from the other huntress.
They journey continue on searching for an old powerful spell book that Lydia had hide in a cave where it been guard by a friendly werewolves clan that serve for Lydia. An expectedly, Marie found out that her old best friend, Samuel MacGate, is a werewolf. After they found the spell book, they decided to kill Nicole's twin forever and found out it wasn't easy as they both, Nicole and Nicholas share the same bound that if one of them die, the other will die too. Marie had to do something so that Nicole will alive and Nicholas will die forever.
Hahaha. That it, I think.. Hope one day I'll get the chance to publish it. ;)
Bye!
Lady ShadoWish
Hey! wait for me!
Assalam,
hey, you guys! sorry I don't update anything last month or weeks or days or hours or minutes and so on. Hahaha.. well, I got reason okay? I been busy like hell and I'm praying so hard that my history teacher will not mad at me because of my 'kerja khusus'. Urgh! This year gonna have a lot of work and school project, which is very hard and frusttrating.
Okay, enough of that. So, what do I want to share with you guys? err... well, let say that I had already finish my second novel, I mean, my fantasy novel (I didn't pubish it around the world so let call it my fantasy novel, okay?) I think I write the sinopsis on the other post. See ya!
Lady ShadoWish
hey, you guys! sorry I don't update anything last month or weeks or days or hours or minutes and so on. Hahaha.. well, I got reason okay? I been busy like hell and I'm praying so hard that my history teacher will not mad at me because of my 'kerja khusus'. Urgh! This year gonna have a lot of work and school project, which is very hard and frusttrating.
Okay, enough of that. So, what do I want to share with you guys? err... well, let say that I had already finish my second novel, I mean, my fantasy novel (I didn't pubish it around the world so let call it my fantasy novel, okay?) I think I write the sinopsis on the other post. See ya!
Lady ShadoWish
Wednesday 25 January 2012
Dark Night
It about a vampire huntress, Marie Marcus that disobey her own duties to kill the vampires and werewolves in her town. Her family's witch cursed her, which is she would be 17 forever if she still refused to continue her duties. Because of her agressive to not to kill anything, she been 17 until now but that doesn't mean she doesn't have any enemy. She did try to kill herself but the cursed make her stay alive like a vampire and she can't kill herself unless someone kill her. But even someone want to kill her, she would never let them kill her without a fight.
A century past, Marie been living and protect the human and even kill some vampires who sink their teeth to the human infornt of her in the night. She been repeating her education like a normal teenager. Normal girl by day, agressive huntress by night. Until one day, she met someone. Alex Blake is a vampire along with his friends and they made an agreement to not to kill each other or turn their back as his friends were scare with her wildness.
They been friends for quite long until she realise he had fall in love with her and she could't deny that she felt the same way. But the old vampire never stop sending spys to hunt for her down. One of the old vampire, Victor, had make her pissed off and she went of for hunting him, follow by Alex and his friends. While hunting Victor, Alex became more thirst for Marie love and his thirst for her had make a distraction for her. She know hunting Victor down would mean risking her life and she would be regret when she die, meaning she would be loosing Alex.
Hahaha.. that's the story that I made, there's more but it better I make it mystery >_-
Bye now!
Lady Of ShadoWish
A century past, Marie been living and protect the human and even kill some vampires who sink their teeth to the human infornt of her in the night. She been repeating her education like a normal teenager. Normal girl by day, agressive huntress by night. Until one day, she met someone. Alex Blake is a vampire along with his friends and they made an agreement to not to kill each other or turn their back as his friends were scare with her wildness.
They been friends for quite long until she realise he had fall in love with her and she could't deny that she felt the same way. But the old vampire never stop sending spys to hunt for her down. One of the old vampire, Victor, had make her pissed off and she went of for hunting him, follow by Alex and his friends. While hunting Victor, Alex became more thirst for Marie love and his thirst for her had make a distraction for her. She know hunting Victor down would mean risking her life and she would be regret when she die, meaning she would be loosing Alex.
Hahaha.. that's the story that I made, there's more but it better I make it mystery >_-
Bye now!
Lady Of ShadoWish
Tuesday 24 January 2012
Just me, myself and I ;)
Assalam,
hey, you guys! hehe.. I, erm, well finally finish my 'fantacy' novel, both of them. So right now I'm writing all of them back into my almost-beautiful-writing. Now I know why some famous writer love to write and make some story. They enjoy writing they own master piece and publish it around the world and then when they friends read it, they will said "OMG, did you write this? It so awsome! Write more, please."
Hahaha.. I wish I can be a writer too like all the famous writer (should I mention they name? well, I think you guys know who is the creator of Vampire Academy, Vampire Diaries, Twilight and more..) Oh, I'm just dreaming to be like them. My story isn't so good like them, of course! But I am happy to write my 'imagination' to words and to book. well, one day I'll tell what my story is all about. hehehe.. just sharing.. Bye!
Lady of ShadoWish
hey, you guys! hehe.. I, erm, well finally finish my 'fantacy' novel, both of them. So right now I'm writing all of them back into my almost-beautiful-writing. Now I know why some famous writer love to write and make some story. They enjoy writing they own master piece and publish it around the world and then when they friends read it, they will said "OMG, did you write this? It so awsome! Write more, please."
Hahaha.. I wish I can be a writer too like all the famous writer (should I mention they name? well, I think you guys know who is the creator of Vampire Academy, Vampire Diaries, Twilight and more..) Oh, I'm just dreaming to be like them. My story isn't so good like them, of course! But I am happy to write my 'imagination' to words and to book. well, one day I'll tell what my story is all about. hehehe.. just sharing.. Bye!
Lady of ShadoWish
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