My Love (Poem)

Hides in the meadow without anyone see
and wait for the prince to come along,
Rest myself on the beautiful of the night,
until the rain fall and he finally come to me.

Come, my love and dance with me.
With the soft grasses beneath me.
Dance until your feet out of energy.
Then rest yourself on the grass with me
Don't be afraid to lay on it willingly
Because you will missed the dark blue sky swaying.

With the green of the grass and the blue of the sky,
Come and hold me in your arms.
With the coldness of the wind and the warm of the sun,
Come and kiss me until it never ends.


P.S I'm not really good in writing poems but hey, what cross your mind is precious. hehehe, hope you'll like it..

LadyShadoWish

The Unexpected

Assalam,

hey, you guys! How are ya? well, I hope you're fine and as healthy as an ox. Me? well, let's take it that I'm not okay. Why? Because my dad is inside the hospital and I'm "baby-sitting" him. I'm not saying that I'm not okay because I'm taking care of my dad, I'm not okay because I'm seeing him suffer with his sickness. Let me ask you, have you seen a movie when someone that they love been shoot or having an accident or sickness or anything that bring them to the hospital? Guess what? I been there three days ago and I don't want it to happen again. It's hurt me so badly. My dad was having a strok (well, that's what the doctor think) His was at his office when he realised he can't move his left eyes. He was taking to his staff until suddendtly his cigarette slip from his fingers. He went to the hospital (which thank god it near his office). The Doc check and said he had once had an heart attack.
It was shocking for me, actually. Never expect that one day, one of my family will having this kind of sickness. But it's all had been planed by Allah SWT Himself. I just tried so hard to accept that there is some benefits on what is happening. I think I found one reason why this happen: for my dad to stop smoking. Hahaha.. (Dad gonna be mad of me if  he knows I'm saying this anyway)
So now, he's getting better (for now). I just wish and pray that it will never happen again. Never. I have to admit that I'm not ready to loose him. I still want him to see me graduate, go to the university in Russia, see me being a pilot or an aerobatic engineering, and I guess many more! I love my dad so much. He is my mentor and forever he will be.
I think that's it. Need to save my tears, eh? Gudnite/Morning

LadyShadoWish

Be Myself? How?

Assalam,
God! Now I start to hate my life. I don't blame anyone, even, him, the one that I always Love since I was born. I'm struggle again, between my parents and friends. I hate it! I hate stuck in between. Staring today, I won't chat with my friends anymore, just to satisfied my parents, I guess especially my dad. I have to be responsible now. Both my brother have left to continue their study, it leave me and my two little brother and sister. Not just that, I must be girl now, real one. (I'm not a leebian, okay?) I mean, I have to change now, sit properly, tidy the whole house, cooking (if I get the chance), n many more girly things (which sometimes or always I hate being too much girl things in me) I'm not saying I hate being a girl. Trust me, I'm glad what I am now but then, sometimes I hate it. Because being this real me, making my parents hate me.
I know you guys gonna say "Be yourself", "Ignore all the comments" n so much more but then, who would you choose? Your parents or you friends? your parents or you lover? Some of people, out there were dying to say lover than parents but for me, better choose parents and I think you know why.
You know sometimes I wish I was a robot because i'm kindda good on listening to someone's orders. But then, I'm grateful I'm a human because I can feel pain. Once I have told you guys I love pain, isn't it? Well, I still kindda love it even it keeps punching my chest. Although, it doesn't matter. What's really matter is being myself (well, my 'girl-self'). I can't listen to myself yet, I;m still young and not ready to decide things. I can't even decided what to where this morning! So it better listen up with my parents 'wisdom'.
I guess that's it. I can't tell you more since I already tell you many things from my heart. I can't take the chance to empty my heart by telling everything over here. so Dosvidaniya' and Goodnight.

LadyShadoWish

Filling the Time

Assalam,

hey! What's up dude? Sorry I didn't update anything. I was very busy with showbiz. Hahaha.. My music school gang have to play 'Gamelan', that is a Malay tradition musics. And thank God! It have last!! My shoulders, butt, waist, backbone, everything from inside out were killing me! Now, that is over, I can fill my time with sleeping, writing, singing, gaming, reading and going crazy!
So let's begin with my novel. Well, I still haven't finish my third book but I'm working very hard to finish it. I didn't finish it yet because I was writing/copy back my first novel into my laptop and add a few more detail.
Then, a few problem which I wish I could tell you everything but I'll give u a bit. I hate being alone but I hate being together. Who ever that expert in relationship, I think they might understand what am I saying. I kept thinking, you know. I been thinking what have I done to myself , family and friends. There are sweets memory but with, sin. I wish I could tell it right now but, I kindda have the habits about keeping my feelings in my heart. I'm a good Secret Keeper. Hahaha!
Well, it holiday in Malaysia. and I got the feeling that it gonna be a very boring holidays since my parents were so busy with their work and my fav brother isn't here anymore! He had continue his study in Desaru. Now, I'm a lonely girl. My sister and my younger brother are the only left but they are, sometime okay, very annoying. (I hope you are not reading this, dad)
Well, I think that's it. I got no more ideas. So this is where I say goodbye. Dosvidaniya!

Lady ShadoWish