Me? A Heart-Breaker? Hell, yeah!

Assalam,
guys, I can't belived I'm a heart breaker! Well, it was my dad who told me but I know it first when the time I became single. And great, evrything complete in me. I'm a spoiler, I'm an Idiot, I'm a Heart-Breaker, I'm an Annoying and I'm a Freak. Hahaha.. I hope the next one would be Strong, through, I am strong but I need to be more strong than ever, maybe like Rose Hathaway? Elena Gilbert? Meredith Sulez? Who else the strong woman that I inspired in my fantacy life? Marie Marcus? Selyen Sylvester? Nicole Benson? Hahaha.. Those 3 name is my creation in my novel. What? I love writeing until I accidently make a novel, I mean, 1 half and quarter novel ( still working on my second one) I know it funny but at least I had my own creation that I can exzample with myself. Hahaha.. I dream or got a lot imagenation so I take my own dream and write it on a book until it became a novel. I don't know if it a good story but at least I got 1 who support my novel. Hahaha... Well, I got to go now. Bye.

Lady ShadoWish/Blue-Dragon/Shadow Serpent

Holidays or un-holidays?

Assalam,
hey, guys! I need to say this: I can't feel that it holidays!! and it kills me.. It so freaking damn boring!! I keep on playing Warcraft 3 again and again and it annoying me. Bah!! And since I'm single, the boys start to line up and ask the same almost-stupid-question on me, and that kills me the most. Oh, what have I done until I'm stuck in the middle and you know what, I'm always stuck in the middle, it makes me suffer. Urgh! Now, I think this is called life.
 Hey to all boys! I'm not beautiful! I'm not pretty! There are a lot of pretty girls in that school or in other school! I'm a FREAK which I LOVE it. So P.L.M.A ( Please Leave Me Alone) I would be grateful and yeah, I will love you like a FRIEND. Aaarh.. I need a doctor. Bye, now.

Lady ShadoWish

Selfish

Assalam,
hey, guys. I know the title is a bit weird but i have to say this from my heart.

People say selfish is wrong thing,
As it break someone's heart.
I say selfish is good thing
As it save your own heart.

I hope you'll guys understand this poem. From now on, I will be, well, almost selfish than you ever think. I had no choice. I was being too much kind and sometimes I hate it, sometimes I don't because it show me who I really are. But I need to be selfish, just to save my own heart. It not that I can't handle the pain in my heart if someone break it ( I actually laugh when it break ) but I had too, for myself and I don't want to do the same mistake I had done
I even know that people make mistake and they try again to fix it and it became more worse. But some people, make mistake and never look back or even fix the mistake that they done.
Anyway, I do this in some reason. I wish could say it or type ti but, I think it will be better if i keep it a secret. Well, I think thats it.

Lady of ShadoWish

Story

Assalam,
Hey,you guys.. As what you guys heard from all the rumors that i'm now single, meaning no more relationship with someone. Why? Well, that the hard one to explain actually. I broke up because my mother and also myself.
My mother noticed that I was getting lazy and dreaming all days and months. I also want to take a very good care about my family's honor. For myself, i was getting lost on my path, my own path. I know it weird but it true. I had to admit that I becoming wild and lost my-old-self since I couple. I don't blame my ex, it wasn't his fault. It was mine and why it was my fault? I can't tell it.
So I hope this short explaination will statified you guys. Further information, meet me tomorrow at girl's astaka. Insyaallah, I will be there. Thx..

Blue-Dragon/Lady of ShadoWish

Keep on moving...

Assalam,

I just can't belived that I done it.. but I'm sure the memory will pop back in my head and if that happen, I will watch it but still movin and marchin forward with my two leg towards what I really miss : My-really-old-self (as I called it)
Hm! Hating me is the most good thing in my life, actually. Even I hate myself.. I hate my choice that I got, I hate when every thing didn't go well, and the most hateful in myself is that I hate that, I let MYSELF be stupid until that stupid lead me to my dark memory-past..
I wish you understand but I'm a freak. No one, except my beloved mother and father who knows me, too well.

P.S, Taylor Swift Fifteen, here that song. One sentence that caught my ears and eyes is "...don't forget to look before you fall..."

Blue~Dragon/Lady of ShadoWish

Turning Point

Assalam,
I, erm, don't know how to say this but... yesturday was my turning point of every mess that I done. I know you'll guys wonder what the meaning of this but you'll guys know soon. I can't talk or write at here or at my own house so just wait.
Well, that's it.. See yaa..

Blue~Dragon/Lady of ShadowWish...