BrokenHearted

Assalam,

Hey, guys. Sorry I didn't write anything last month. I was very busy with studying (I think). So back to the title : Brokenhearted. Yeah, I took the word from Karmin because I am brokenhearted right now. First, after trial exam we have an Open Day for teacher to talk with our parents. I, erm, was so close with this boy because I guess we understand each other more like a friend. Then, once, our teacher reminded us not to be very close so we do as she said. On the Open Day, I thought she would not say about our issue because it past already! But she told them, my mom and his parents. I felt like I been betrayed by my own mentor. I know she want to prevent us from bad things but why must she bring along my parents? I felt more a shame with the boy! Feels like there is a scar on half of my face. I could still feel the pain! It so Pain!
Thank god that my father trust on me. He told me not to do that again but the saddest thing is, I can't talk to the boy, like almost forever. Doooom! I hate to say this but I am bound with him. I hate it because it make me weak! So weak until I didn't know myself. But I guess I already liked him, Okay, maybe loved him but no more than couple things. Now, my father forbidden me from talk to him, Skype him or even sent a massage. I kindda frustrated but it the best way to reach my dream. If I want to be pilot and give my father a boat and my mother a red sport car I must not let anything stop my way, including my feeling.
I wish to told him like this but he was kind of believe that we can be together (awkward!) even he knew that, erm (I hate this word) marriage is on Allah's will.
Okay! That's it. I'm not gonna let this feeling bubble up in my chest! So dosvidaniya'.

Lady ShadoWish